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Rating: PG

Author's Notes: I would like to thank AJ and cherryice for beta reading
this.

It had been a long day, and CJ was exhausted. She had not been feeling well
lately. She assumed that she was coming down with the flu or something. She
really didn't have the time to be sick then. As she was leaving she stepped
into Toby's office.

"Hi." She said.

"You're leaving?" Toby said.

"That's a very astute observation."

"Yeah. Are you feeling any better?"

"Not really."

"You should see a doctor."

"When do I have the time to see a doctor?"

"It's your health, you should make time."

"Toby..."

"You've been sick for the last two weeks. You need to see a doctor."

"I'm going home."

"To your apartment or mine?"

"Mine."

"Is it okay if I come by later?"

"I'll probably be asleep, but I would be disappointed if you didn't."

"Well, I'd hate to disappoint you."

"Yes, you would." CJ said. She kissed him lightly on the lips and left.

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Toby opened the door to CJ's apartment later that night. It was dark, and
he was certain she had gone to bed. He looked into her bedroom, and saw that
she was asleep. He quietly slipped in beside her. He was almost asleep when
he felt her wake up.

"You came." CJ whispered as she turned until she was facing him.

"I told you I would." Toby said as he brushed her hair back from her face.

"I know."

"Are you feeling any better."

"No, I'm calling the doctor tomorrow."

"Do you want me to go with you?"

"No, I'll go by myself."

"Okay."

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CJ was able to get an appointment to see her doctor the next morning. She
called Carol, and told her that she would not be in until after the
appointment. Later, Toby learned from Josh that she had called to say she
would not be in at all that day. After hearing that, he was certain that
the doctor had told her something bad. He wanted to go and see her during
lunch, but was unable to get away from the office. He would have left, but
it would not have been good to have two members of the senior staff out. So
he waited, and became more frantic as the hours passed.

When he went to her apartment, he found her sitting in the dark in the
living room. He knew immediately that something was wrong. She was sitting
with her legs drawn up, wrapped in a blanket.

"CJ." He said softly. When she turned to look at him, he could tell she had
been crying.

"I didn't hear you come in."

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing, I'm fine."

"CJ, you've been crying."

"Yeah, I know that."

"You never cry." Toby said as he sat down on the table in front of her. He
took her hands in his . "You went to the doctor today, what did you find
out?"

She avoided his eyes for a moment before answering. "I'm pregnant."

"What?" Toby said clutching her hand tighter.

"I'm pregnant." CJ said as she let go of his hand and got up. She walked
towards the window. "I'm sorry, it's still a little shocking to me and I'm
trying to adjust to it."

"It's okay."

"I've calmed down considerably from the way I was earlier." She walked
back over to the couch and sat down. She smiled weakly at him. "At least we
know what's been wrong now."

"Yeah. How do you feel about this?"

"I don't know."

Toby watched her for a moment, wondering if he should ask what he was
thinking. He finally decided to ask. "Do you want to have this baby?"

"Toby?!" CJ cried. She got up and walked back to the window.

Toby knew that his words had hurt her deeply. He saw her lightly touch her
fingers to the window pane. He searched for words that would explain why he
had said that, and would not hurt her further. "CJ." Toby said carefully.
"Given the way you are acting it is a legitimate question."

"Yes, I know it is." CJ said as she turned to face him. She sat back down
beside him, and took his hand in hers. "This is something I never thought of
before today. I think it would be selfish to not have the baby. There is no
real reason for me not to have the baby."

"Us, CJ, no reason for us not to have the baby." Toby corrected.

"Okay, I just didn't know how you would..."

"How I would feel about this?"

"Yeah."

"I'm happy about it." Toby said as he caressed her face.

CJ turned her head and kissed the palm of his hand. "I'm glad."

to be continued...

 

A Long and Winding Road - 2