See part 1 for disclaimer
I know I have to make a decision and it is not an easy decision to make. Contrary to what Josh and everyone else probably thinks, I have no intention of taking Michael away from CJ. There has to be some way that we can work out a reasonable way to do this. I can't help but wonder if things would have been different if I hadn't made the decision I made all those years ago.
Josh had said he would call as soon as he knew anything. It is taking him forever to call. I stare at the phone willing it to ring and finally it does.
"Toby." Josh says. "Listen I've talked to her doctors but she is still asleep so I haven't spoken with her yet."
"How is she?"
"They say she will be fine."
"Yeah, Toby, listen they did tell me one thing."
"Yeah, six weeks along."
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Six weeks ago she was in D.C. I think there is a good possibility you are the father."
"She would have told me. And she was seeing someone in California, and if this child were mine she would have told me."
"Just tell her that I'm glad she is okay, and that she was able to go on with her life."
"You're certain of that?"
"Yeah, it's over between us."
Toby still has not done anything about the situation with Michael. I'm starting to feel comfortable again and then I remember that Toby knows everything now. I really wish that he would go ahead and do whatever he is planning to do.
"Yes, Marion." I say to my assistant who is standing in my doorway.
"Toby Ziegler is here to see you."
"Okay, send him in." I said.
"Good morning, CJ." Toby says as he hits down in the chair in front of my desk.
"Good morning." I reply
"How is Michael?" Toby asks.
"He is doing well." I could see the relief on his face as I said this.
"Thank God." He says. "We need to discuss what we are going to do about this situation."
"Yeah we do."
"He needs to know the truth." Toby says.
"How on earth do I tell him?" I wonder aloud.
"I don't know, but I know it won't be easy."
"No, it won't. Are you planning to sue for visitation or custody?" I finally ask what has been on my mind since he walked in.
"I'm hoping we can work this out together without going to court over it."
"Yeah, that would be good."
"Yeah." Toby replied.
"I do think we need to talk more about this." I say.
"Yeah." He says and leaves.
Later that evening Josh came by to see me.
"Nice speech." Josh says talking about a speech I had given on the floor of the Senate that day.
"Thanks you know I'm really considering doing a filibuster when that bill comes up for a vote."
"I'll bring you a copy of the D.C. phone book." Josh laughs.
"So how's it going?"
"Michael is very well again."
"That's good. What about the situation with Toby?"
"I hope things are going to be fine."
"He came to see me today. We talked."
"So he told you he didn't plan to seek custody?"
"He didn't come out and say that. But I thought that was what he was saying."
"Oh, I thought he would have told you."
"You know I can't help but think of how easily all of this could have been avoided."
"Josh, don't start with telling me I should have told Toby from the beginning." I say.
"I'm not it's just I know more of what happened on this end than you do."
"What do you know?"
"CJ, Toby didn't decide it was over with the two of you until I told him you were pregnant."
"What??!" I say in disbelief.
"Do you know why I don't like to speculate about what I would have done if he hadn't said that?"
"I would have told him. The reason I didn't was because I thought it would only hurt Michael in the long run."
"If his parents were together only for his sake."
"I don't know if I was even know the answer to that now. I wasn't exactly thinking clearly at that time, and you know that."
"Yeah I know."
"Toby and I had just divorced. Michael wasn't supposed to happen, and I don't regret that he did. I guess I thought that a baby would do nothing to improve the relationship and that in the long term, our rocky relationship would only hurt Michael.
"I'm not the one you should tell this to."
"I know that. But I don't know if I can open my heart up to him again."
to be continued...