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"CJ." Everyone in the room said as she fell.

"You okay?" Josh asked as he caught her.

"Yeah, I think so." CJ said. "Maybe I should try this again."

"No, I donít think so." Jed said. "Iím going to send for Abbey."

"Sir, Iím fine." CJ said.

"No, Iím sending for Abbey, no buts." Jed said.

About five minutes later Abbey walked into the Oval Office. "What happened?" she asked.

"CJ got really dizzy and almost passed out." Josh said.

"Well, why donít you and I go back to your office, CJ." Abbey said.

"Okay." CJ said and Josh helped her to stand.


"I want you to sit down on that couch and not move." Abbey told CJ when they reached CJís office. "Youíre not feeling dizzy anymore?"

"No." CJ said.

"Tell me what happened?"

"They used Toby to transmit their demands. The President put the phone on speaker. I stayed quiet while they were talking about the demands. Then the President asked how Toby was, he said he was fine. I couldnít stay quiet then and I said, thank God. I think it shocked Toby that I was in there, he said my name, and then the terrorists took the phone away from him. I was trying not to cry, so I was going to go stand next to the windows. When I stood up, I was dizzy and couldnít stand. You know the rest."

"Okay, have you been dizzy before?" Abbey asked.

"Yeah, a couple of times." CJ answered.

"What did your doctorís say?"

"I havenít told either of them." CJ replied.

"Why not?"

"Both of my dizzy spells have happened in the last two days."

"Okay. How bad has your morning sickness been?"

"It should be called afternoon or evening sickness. Iíve been fine in the mornings. But Iíve had a lot."

"Thatís probably contributing to the dizziness."


"I think you should go to the residence and rest for awhile." Abbey suggested.


"If anything happens you know weíll let you know."

"I know that. I just donít think I can be around Meghan right now. If Iím around her then sheíll know thereís something wrong, and I donít what her to know."

"Okay, then you should go home."

"That might be a good idea. Youíll have the President..."

"Yeah, weíll call you. Listen I donít want you to be alone, Iím going to ask Josh to go with you."



Toby sat down in his seat on the plane. He couldnít even begin to imagine what CJ was going through. What had she been doing in the Oval anyway? Of course she probably insisted on staying. He moved forward in the seat so he could get his wallet out. If anyone had told him five years ago that he would have had a wallet filled with photos he would have laughed at them. The first photo was one of CJ holding Meghan. It had been taken shortly before he left to come to Israel. Meghan had probably changed so much since then. She was growing up so fast. The next photo was one of CJ alone, it had been taken by a White House photographer on the day of Bartletís second inauguration. It was probably his favorite photo of her.

"Your family?" Mrs. Rubenstein asked noticing the photos Toby was looking at.

"My wife and daughter." He answered.

"How old is your daughter?"

"Meghan will be two in November."

"Sheís very pretty."

"Thank you. We are very proud of her."

"I would say you and your wife are."

"Yes, CJ and I are proud of her."

"She is your only child?"


"I see. Iíll leave you alone now. I can see you want to think about your family." Mrs. Rubenstein said.

"Youíre right."


"Do you need anything?" Josh asked CJ as he opened the door to her and Tobyís apartment.

"Nothing you can get for me." CJ answered.

"CJ, everythingís going to be okay." Josh said.

"Iím trying to believe that." CJ said.

"Then believe it."

"Iím trying, Josh, Iím really trying."

"I know you are. You want some dinner?"

"Not really, but I know I need to eat." CJ replied.

"Okay, whereís the takeout menus?"

"Here." CJ said opening the drawer where the menus were.

"Okay, how about Chinese."

"Yeah, a little bit but I donít want anything spicy."



Toby had believed it when people said that your life could pass before your eyes. He was finding that was a very true statement. He smiled to himself as he remembered the first time he had asked CJ out...


"CJ, you were right when you said I was a million miles away when you came into my office."

He noticed that she was about to interrupt him. "Please just let me say this without any interruptions." He told her.


"Okay, in the last year, you and I have become closer. In fact, I would consider you one of my closest friends." Toby paused a moment before continuing. "I often wonder if there is more than friendship here."

"Toby.." CJ said softly.

"No, let me finish. I certainly don't want to ruin our friendship. But, I would like to see if there is more. Okay, thatís what I came to say. Iíll leave now, before you kick me out."

"No, you are not going anywhere. I think I should have something to say about this."


"Youíre right we have gotten closer in the last year. And I consider you one of my closest friends."


"Like you, I too have wondered if there is more than friendship here. In fact, on my side, I think there is , and I would like to see where that could take us."

"So would I."

"Okay, then we are agreed that there is more than friendship between us?"

"Yes" Toby said as he moved to sit next to her.

"What are we going to do about that?" She asked, turning to him with a smile.

"I think we should find out where these feelings will take us."

"So do I." She replied.

Toby searched her eyes for a moment. He leaned closer to her, she closed her eyes. He kissed her lightly on the lips.

"That wasnít taking things too fast, was it?" Toby asked after ending the kiss.

"No." CJ laughed.




Josh had suggested to CJ that she lay down after they had eaten. That had been hours ago, and now she was unable to sleep and was sitting in a chair by the window. She probably would have gone out to sit on the balcony, but that likely would have woken Josh up and she didnít want to worry him. She moved her hand, and her engagement ring caught her eye. She looked at it, thinking of when Toby had proposed to her.


"You still havenít told me what youíre up to." C.J said as Toby was unlocking the door to his apartment.

"I havenít admitted that Iím up to something, yet."

"You just admitted it. I was right. You said ĎI havenít admitted Iím up to something, yet."

"Why donít you sit down on the couch and close your eyes, and I'll be back in a minute."


"Keep your eyes shut!"


Toby walked into the bedroom and took a jewelry box from the dresser. He opened it and looked at the diamond and emerald ring inside of it. He worked up his courage to ask C.J the question he was planning to ask, and went back into the living room. He knelt in front of her and took her left hand in his.

"You can open your eyes now."


"The last year that you and I have been together has been the happiest year of my life." Toby said as he took the jewelry box from his pocket.

"Oh, my God." C.J whispered.

"Iíve decided that the only way I can be certain I remain happy is to see that you stay in my life, permanently. Claudia Jean Cregg will you do me the honor of agreeing to become my wife?"

C.J could barely talk for the tears that were falling. "YES, Iíll marry you."

Toby slipped the ring on her finger. He then moved to the couch beside her. "I love you."

"I love you too." C.J said, then she leaned closer to him and kissed him. Toby put his arms around her, pulled her closer to him, and returned the kiss.


"You look like youíre a million miles away." Josh said softly, trying not to frighten CJ.

"Something that seems like a million years ago, right now." CJ said.

"What, if I may ask?"

"The night Toby proposed to me."

"Yeah, I remember you flashing that ring at me the next day." Josh laughed.

"That was an accident."

"If you say so."

"Iíll be back in a minute." CJ said and rushed into the bathroom.

Josh waited on CJ to return. "I guess the Chinese didnít agree with you? Iím sorry."

"Donít worry about it." CJ said and sat back down

"You okay?"

"Yeah, I think so."

"Wait you rushed out of Leoís office earlier today." Josh said.

"Yeah." CJ replied.

"Youíre not..."

"Iím not what, Josh?"



"Oh, my God you are. Does Toby know?"

"If I were pregnant do you think Iíd tell him about it on the phone?"

"No. So he doesnít know?"


to be continued...


I Know Why The River Runs - 7



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