See part 1 for disclaimers.
Leo had said he didnít want to see either Toby or CJ at the White House the next day, so they spent the day with Meghan.
"Itís two oíclock." CJ said.
"I think Mommyís trying to say that itís your nap time." Toby said to Meghan as he picked her up. "Iíll put her to bed." Toby said to CJ.
"Okay." CJ said and watched Toby take Meghan to her room.
CJ rested her head against the pillows on the couch and closed her eyes. She still hadnít told Toby about her pregnancy. It had been on the tip of her tongue to tell him so many times. But she just couldn't get the words out. She still didnít know how to tell him. Her next appointment with Dr. Santos was on Tuesday, so she had until Tuesday to tell him. She jumped when she felt Toby touch her cheek.
"Iím sorry I didnít mean to startle you." Toby said and sat down behind her on the couch.
"Donít worry about it." She said as he put his arms around her and pulled her against him. "I didnít hear you come back in."
"You looked like you were lost in thought."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
"Not really." CJ said and laid her head against his shoulder.
"Okay," Toby replied.
"I know Iíve probably said this about a million times, but itís good to have you home."
"I donít think Iíll get tired of hearing you say that." Toby said.
"Good." CJ laughed.
"I really have to find a way to tell him." CJ thought as she was sitting in bed reading later that night. "I canít hide this for long. Why am I so afraid to tell him?" She sat the book on the night stand. She was subconsciously rubbing her stomach when Toby walked in.
"That brings back memories." He said.
"What?" She asked startled.
"You rubbing your stomach. You did that a lot when you were pregnant with Meghan. And thatís the second time today I have startled you."
"Yeah, it is. Come over here, please. We need to talk." CJ said.
"Okay." Toby said and sat down beside her on the edge of the bed.
CJ took his hand and placed it against her stomach before speaking. "Remember when I went on birth control, they told us it wasnít full proof?"
"Yes, they said that if taken correctly..."
"Exactly if taken correctly. I forgot to take them when Meghan had the ear infection."
"I was really hoping I wouldnít have to spell this out for you." CJ sighed. "Toby, Iím pregnant."
Toby sat and stared at her for a moment before speaking. "You are positive of this."
"Yes." CJ said.
"When did it happen, or when did I find out?" CJ asked.
"Both, I guess." Toby said.
"It likely happened the night before you left. I found out for certain on our anniversary." CJ replied.
"What have the doctors said?"
"Dr. Santos says the baby is fine. Dr. Phillips says that for now, Iím fine. They are both hopeful that Iíll carry this baby as long as I did Meghan. There is of course also the chance that nothing will go wrong this time."
"Why didnít you tell me this earlier?" Toby asked.
"I couldnít find the words." CJ said.
"I was afraid of how you would react."
"You were afraid of how I would react?"
"Yes, I was afraid you wouldnít be happy about it."
"Why did you think that?"
"I remember what you went through when I was pregnant with Meghan..."
"And I remember what you went through. I also remember that you never regretted it."
"I donít want to watch you worrying over me again." CJ said with tears starting to form in her eyes.
"You know I never regretted it either." Toby said.
"I know that."
"Then why would you think I wouldnít be happy over this? You know during the first few months you were pregnant with Meghan, I used to dream about us having another child."
"So did I." CJ said.
"Do you think I could regret that you are pregnant then?"
"Okay, but you havenít asked if Iím happy about it?" Toby said.
"Are you happy?" CJ laughed.
"Yes, I am." Toby said he gently rubbed her stomach as he spoke. "I never thought Iíd do this again."
"What?" CJ asked.
"Touch you, knowing that you were carrying my child."
"I am, arenít I."
"You sound as if you are just realizing that." Toby laughed, he had moved until he was holding her.
"No, trust me I realized it the first time I was sick."
"Has it been bad?"
"It hasnít been as bad since youíve been home. I was dizzy a couple of times and I told Mrs. Bartlet that it should be called afternoon or evening sickness. Iíve been fine in the mornings so far."
"She guessed it. I didnít actually tell her. Josh also guessed it."
"Does Meghan know."
"No, I havenít told her that in about seven months she will have a little brother or sister."
"Okay. Are you ready for this?"
"For what?" CJ asked.
"You know Iím going to be overprotective of you again and that Iíll try to take care of you."
"I like it when you take care of me."
"You shouldnít have told me that."
"I shouldnít have?"
"No, you shouldnít have." Toby said and kissed her. "You should get some sleep."
"Yes, I can tell itís started again. You told me to sleep more when I was pregnant than you ever have." CJ laughed and snuggled into his embrace.
"You never gave me my anniversary present." Toby said.
"I did." CJ said.
"Thatís funny I donít seem to remember unwrapping anything." Toby laughed.
"What did I just tell you?"
"That you are pregnant."
"Exactly, and when did I find that out?"
"On our anniversary. Wait the baby is the anniversary gift."
"Well telling you I am pregnant is the gift."
"A very unexpected gift." Toby said.
"But a good one?"
"Yeah a good one." Toby said and kissed her. "I love you Claudia Jean, go to sleep now."
"Love you too." CJ whispered.
Toby watched CJ sleep for awhile. It had been shocking to learn that she was pregnant. But he was happy about it. "Everything has to be all right. It just has to be." He thought as he gently rubbed her stomach.