DISCLAIMER: See Part 1
NOTES: See Part 1, also in this part, there is mention of events taking place
in the KD story "Drowning", if you have not read this, email me or
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~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~ denotes flashbacks or memories, same thing
SUMMARY: KD and Toby deal with possibilities, Leo finds that he has to start
taking steps to stay happy and keep the women he loves happy at the same time.
"Toby." KD exclaimed as she leaned into the door. Toby looked up
smiled before beckoning her in. She smiled back and moved into the office,
closing the door behind her.
"Hey beautiful. How'd it go?" He asked as he got to his feet. She
hesitantly and he groaned.
"I'm sorry!" She whimpered and walked over to him. "I chickened
was talking about you and how wonderful you were and I realized that I don't
know if I can do this." She admitted finally. Toby sighed and slipped his
arms around her waist. She smiled weakly and leaned her head against his
"Does that mean that you don't want to?" He asked softly. KD shook her
head and inhaled slowly.
"It's just so complicated. I mean, we're going into an election year and
I don't know what it'll do to the administration if we have a kid. Our
workload will have to diminish and-" She started.
"Are you really worried about the work or is it about what happened to
you ten years ago?" Toby interrupted softly. KD hesitated and then moved
from him to sit on his couch.
"It's about both." She said softly. "I mean, we're both career
Toby. We've been working our entire lives, and we've never even talked about
a baby." She whispered as she looked down at her tummy. Toby sighed and
to sit next to her.
"Let's talk about it now." He said softly. "Do you not want this
true?" He asked in a quiet whisper. She leaned against him but didn't look
him in the eye. Instead she just continued to watch her stomach.
"I don't know. Ten years ago, I was just graduating medical school, but I
didn't have a job; I didn't have a life that would get over-complicated. When
that ended so badly, I never really thought that I'd have another chance to
be a mommy." She murmured. "And now, I like working at the White House
Dad and Joss and you and the others. If I am... If it is true, it'll mean
at least six months off of work, and even then the kid will need a lot of
attention and going into an election year, like I said... It could be
really bad timing." She said softly. Toby listened and noticed how she
couldn't say the word 'pregnant' out loud. Was she afraid of this?
"I know of the circumstances, Katy, but I'm asking what you want. Forget
about everything else for a minute. Just thinking about you and me and this
possibility right now. You and me, husband and wife... Do you see us as
parents any time soon, or ever?" He asked softly. KD snuggled her face into
his chest and exhaled slowly.
"Yes." She said softly. He kissed her head.
"Do you want this to happen? I mean we still don't even know? It's too
early to tell and the doctor's the one who's going to have final say." Toby
"What about you? You've just been asking questions. What do you want?"
asked as she looked up at him. "I've never heard you vocalize desires to be
daddy." She said with a smile. He looked back down at her and smiled before
hugging her closer.
"I would be honored if you had my child, Kathryn Dylan Ziegler." He
whispered. "And if it's okay with you, I don't mind in the least bit
of us as a family." He added. KD smiled at him and nodded.
"I'm just worried. I mean I never really had a mother, so how do I do it?
How can I be a good mom?" She asked weakly.
"Because you're a wonderful, kind, intelligent, witty person, and you've
seen Abbey Bartlet with her daughters and you've watched families all over
the world. You can do it, because you're warm and gentle. If we are going to
become a family, be parents, I know we'll be good ones." Toby assured her
before kissing her lips tenderly.
"Thank you, Toby. I know you're going to be a wonderful father, whether
it's sooner or later." She murmured before kissing him back. He held her
close and smiled.
"Then we can do this. We can, Katy." He whispered.
"You bet your butt we can do this." She said weakly. He could still
some hesitance in her voice.
"We can." He said again. She smiled and nodded.
"I know." She replied a little stronger. She knew they could do it,
most of her wanted to do it, but she was still unsure. She knew that was the
real reason why she couldn't tell Leo what was up. He knew what had happened
so many years ago. The only people who knew were Leo, Joss, Abbey, Toby and .
. . Danny. Danny. What would she say to Danny?
KD stepped into her office and stopped short when she saw Danny on her
couch. She closed the door and sat next to him.
"Hi there." She whispered.
"Hi." He replied. They looked at each other, silently communicating
their eyes. Suddenly, he pulled out a small white rose and handed it to her.
"Memoriam." He explained. She sniffled and hugged him.
"I know." She replied softly.
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