DISCLAIMER: See Part 1, once again "Blessed" is the property of Elton John
and Bernie Taupin. It is not mine.
NOTES: See Part 1
SUMMARY: KD and Toby deal with possibilities, Leo finds that he has to start
taking steps to stay happy and keep the women he loves happy at the same time.

Toby felt his knees start to shake. KD took a hold of his hand and he
felt his strength return to him. He slipped his arms around her waist and
kissed her head. The doctor smiled. "I can see this is good news." He added
"Very good news." Toby whispered. KD smiled and leaned against him.
"In that case, I'd like to schedule your first ultrasound. We want to
look in there and see that everything's okay, find out how old the baby is
and maybe extrapolate a due date." The doctor exclaimed. KD and Toby nodded
their understanding. "Okay, why don't you change back, Mrs. Ziegler and then
when you're ready, we'll go ahead and schedule that." The doctor exclaimed.
They nodded again and he left. KD smiled and looked at Toby. Their eyes met
and Toby smiled back.
"Wow." She whispered.
"I know." He replied softly. "I'm a daddy."
"Yes, you are." She replied and kissed him gently. He kissed her back,
his arms holding her close.
"And you're a mommy." He said as he stared into her eyes. He could see
her nervousness, her fear. She could do it though. He knew she could and he
had to make her see that she could. "You're going to be the best mommy there
is." He assured her. "You can and you will." She smiled and hugged him close,
resting her chin on his shoulder. He hugged her back and moved to stroke her
tummy gently with his fingers.

Hey you, you're a child in my head
You haven't walked yet
Your first words have yet to be said
But I swear you'll be blessed

In the car ride back to the office, KD watched her husband with smiling
eyes and listened to Elton John sing the heartfelt song on the radio. What a
brilliant man he was, so tender and charming. What would their child be?
Would it be a boy or a girl? Who would the child look like more? Who would he
or she take after? She secretly hoped that the child would be like his or her
father. KD looked inside herself and found that she was so full of
insecurities. She didn't want her child to go through that. She wanted her
child to be warm, tender, caring, sure of the world and of the fate that he
or she was handed. She wanted to have more of the joy Toby brought her.

I know you're still just a dream
Your eyes might be green
Or the bluest that I've ever seen
Anyway you'll be blessed

Toby muttered something about the traffic and then pulled into another
lane. KD laughed lightly, drawing his gaze over to her. He smiled and brushed
his hand against her face. She smiled back and leaned into his touch, kissing
his palm gently. She was carrying his child. It was an amazing feeling. He
wanted to jump up on the roof of the White House and shout it out to the
world. Still, he knew she was scared. It was so hard for her ten years ago.
He knew that, even though he wasn't there. She'd spent five months of her
life carrying around a little girl that would never see the world. She spent
ten years carrying around the guilt of letting that child die, even though
there was nothing she could have done. It was not her fault, but he wasn't
sure if she knew it, even now. All he could hope for was that she be happy
with this news. He hoped she was happy with the news. He hoped she wanted
this as much as he did. He was never a real touchy-feely person, never that
warm or tender, but he did know that he was happy to be a father. He did know
that he was happy with the news. He would be warm and tender with his child.
This he knew.

And you, you'll be blessed
You'll have the best
I promise you that
I'll pick a star from the sky
Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that, promise you that, promise you that
You'll be blessed

KD laughed again as Toby muttered a dry curse to the car in front of
them. What kind of father would he be, she wondered again. She knew he wasn't
the world's most endearing mind in the world, but she could see him being a
wonderful father, loving and attentive. When he found things that he cared
about, he was that way. He was that way with her. She smiled as she thought
about how 'attentive' he'd been lately and wondered how he react when he
realized that soon enough, that kind of attention wouldn't be possible. It
was hard for that kind of attention when your wife is so large she can't see
her feet, and even after the birth, she knew that people got so tired just
from the late night feedings and worrying so much. She'd seen that when Abbey
had had a little girl named Zoey. She'd seen the exhaustion in the Bartlet's
eyes. Of course, Jed, being the animal that he was, probably didn't let
exhaustion stop him, now that KD thought about it. Was Toby like that?

I need you before I'm too old
To have and to hold
To walk with you and watch you grow
And know that you're blessed

Toby suddenly began to wonder what would happen when they got back to the
office. Would KD chicken out again or would she be willing to tell the truth?
Would she be able to tell Leo? What would she ask him to do? Could he keep
that secret for her? Would she ask him to? What would they say when the two
of them walked into the staff meeting today and every one of them knew that
they'd gone to a doctor's appointment. But then Toby's mind switch gears
again. He thought of families and of children. He thought of watching his
child grow up and he wondered what the kid would be. A doctor, a writer,
maybe President one day. He wanted to be a father. He wanted to hold his
child in his arms and then watch that child grow into a beautiful person. He
knew it was possible. He knew it. He wanted that. He'd never thought about
children before. He'd always been too busy to think about it. But now...
Now he wanted children. He wanted to be a father and have that feeling. Now
he was a father. He would have that feeling.

And you, you'll be blessed
You'll have the best
I promise you that
I'll pick a star from the sky
Pull your name from a hat
I promise you that, promise you that, promise you that
You'll be blessed

As Toby parked the car in his spot, he glanced at his watch. It was five
minutes to four. That meant that he had five minutes with KD before they had
to walk into the Oval office and either lie about the news they had or they
were going to tell the truth and get ready for the reactions. It was time for
Toby to find out which of these was going to happen.
"So what are we going to say?" He asked softly as they sat in the car for
another moment. "You ready to tell them?" KD paused and then looked at him, a
little more fear in her eyes than the last time he gazed into them.
"Yes. But there's someone else I have to talk to first." She said softly.
"And I don't know how to do it." Toby paused and then realized who she was
talking about. He nodded slowly.
"He'll understand, Katy." He said softly. "But if you want to talk to him
first, I'm sure we can arrange it. We might be a little late for staff, but
Leo's expecting that anyway." He said with a smile. KD smiled and ran her
hand over Toby's face, caressing him gently.
"I love you so much." She whispered. "You're so good to me."
"It's what you deserve." He replied and got out of the car. He walked
around and watched as she climbed out of the car. He walked forward and
slipped his arms around her. "And you're gonna have to get used to me taking
care of you. You're not going to overdo it, Katy." He whispered before
kissing her gently. She smiled and nodded.
"I want to take care of this baby as much as you do, Toby." She
whispered. He smiled and nodded, knowing what she meant.
"And we will. This is going to be the most beautiful thing, Katy." He
whispered to her before kissing her passionately. She kissed him back and
then hugged him tightly. Then he smiled and took her by the hand, moving
towards the elevators and pulling her with him. She laughed as he pressed her
against the wall of the elevator and kissed her gently. When the doors opened
again, they walked out into the hallway and headed for their bullpens.
"I'll see you in a few minutes." She said before pushing him off down the
hallway. He nodded and moved back for his office. KD took a deep breath and
headed for the pressroom.

TBC... .


Blessed - 6



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