SERIES: Elements #9
RATING: PG-13, ESF, EMF, EJF, S/M, JoshPoV
SUMMARY: Sometimes new challenges confront us...Sometimes we confront them.
DISCLAIMERS: I don't own these characters, still.
NOTES/THANKS/ETC.: This one's short, unbetaed, and sort of a rambling vignette. Josh rambling imagine my shock J I'd like to thank all of you who've sent such positive feedback it's always nice to know that, not only are people reading and enjoying your fic, but that they're actually waiting for more.
After Sam was in the hospital, I spent a lot of time thinking about Dad. Actually, I'd been doing a lot of thinking ever since Sam had been diagnosed.
I was there for hardly any of Dad's last year. I went home at Thanksgiving and I stopped in during a campaign stop in Hartford. I wasn't there when he died, and I only stayed 2 days for the funeral. Mom wanted me to sit shivah with her but...California...the campaign...Everything I'd been working for...I couldn't stay in Connecticut for a week. And Mom was being taken care of...Everyone was around so she'd be okay...
She understood. She didn't stay angry with me.
I dunno. I've always felt guilty about that. Sorta goes back to cutting and running, never being around as people are dying. Joanie, Dad...
Maybe that was part of the reason I was around so much with Sam, 'cause on some...strange level, I figured he'd die and I should be there?
I started wondering what had happened to make me think that way. Why was I acting as though his death was imminent? Why was I thinking like that? He was doing relatively well, considering the bout with pneumonia and the fact that he was getting weaker on chemo and all that.
Then I remembered Oh yeah. That's why. Experience with the Curse of Lyman.
Fortunately for Sam, he's a Seaborn, not a Lyman, and while he may not have had the best luck with the ladies (Lisa and Laurie come to mind), he didn't' seem to be cursed.
Or maybe every family has a curse of some sort. Like the McGarrys and alcohol. Or the Seaborns and women Sam's dad and mistress woman, Sam and the hooker...
Though then there was Sam and Mallory...She was being so good for him. S he actually managed to keep him home and resting once in a great while a very impressive feat and you can tell just by watching them together the sort of...thing they had together. An intangible...connection. Especially after Sam was out of the hospital a couple days. Something happened but neither one would tell me about it. I dunno, I think if Sam's ever gonna get married, it'd probably be to Mal maybe the whole idea of 'if a relationship can survive this, it can survive anything.'
I dunno, I don't...picture Sam really proposing or anything until awhile after he's in remission, it'd be too...Toby would call it 'tempting fate.' Plus he wouldn't wanna take the chance on-...Wait.
I was gonna say he wouldn't wanna take the chance on making Mal a widow, but it's not like we don't-...Everyone-...Nothing is certain. I mean, I could walk outside tomorrow and get hit by a bus or a...her of buffalo, I guess wife or no wife.
Way to think positively.