Disclaimer: These characters belong to Aaron Sorkin and the other people at NBC. And the song is not mine either.
Best I ever had
I had left Stanley's and had gone over to Josh's apartment. He wasn't there but then part of me knew he wouldn't be there. I had gotten in my car and cried all the way home. I really needed to make amends with him, but I had to find him first. I had to find my husband and tell him that I loved him. There were so many things I needed to say. But I wondered if he could forgive me.
But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I hadn't been home for very long when Sam called. He was really sweet to me and he asked how I was. I know that he had to know what I had done. But he didn't even mention it. Instead he invited me over for dinner. I wanted to say no, but I didn't.
Soon after I arrived at Sam's apartment I realized I wasn't going to be the only dinner companion. Toby, Zoey and C.J. showed up a few minutes later. C.J. smiled at me and gave me reassuring hug. She whispered that she didn't really have any hard feelings towards me. It dawned on me why I was there when she said that. They were trying to change my mind, which they hadn't realized she had already changed.
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had
Zoey kept me in conversation so I decided maybe I shouldn't try to leave. But I was totally unprepared for Josh to show up. It was even worse than I had thought. Not only were they trying to change my mind, they were trying to make me do it publicly. Damn, I was screwed.
Okay in my defense I knew I was wrong and I had tried to find Josh myself earlier. But why were they making this so hard? I had seen Josh in the doorway and I saw his reluctance to come in. Was it because he didn't want to make up with me or was it because he wasn't sure it was what I wanted.
My mind was still swimming with these questions when Josh came in. Everybody pretended like nothing unusual was happening. But my heart was leaping out of my chest. There was the man that I loved, the man that I had hurt so much. He gave me a quick smile and I froze.
"Donna, can you help me in the kitchen? I don't know what Sam has done to the dinner..." C.J. called.
I avoided everyone's eyes as I went into the kitchen. C.J. gave me another hug. I glared at her once we pulled away.
"What happened to letting me tell him on my own?" I asked icily.
"Calm down we never said that you had to talk here." C.J. assured me.
"But you got both me and Josh together in the same apartment." I stammered.
"You work in the same office too." C.J. commented.
"This isn't fair." I protested.
"Talk to him, don't talk to him. We don't care we just thought you wanted to have dinner with your friends. Donna, whatever you decide we still think of you as a friend and not just Josh's wife." C.J. stated firmly.
"Alright. So what was the big kitchen emergency?" I asked changing the subject.
"Oh I need you to help me to re-make the salad. Sam kind of dropped it." C.J. smiled.
I rolled my eyes and I went about cutting up some vegetables. C.J. recruited Zoey to help set the table. The main course was a big surprise. Sam refused to let us look in the oven. All he would say was that we needed a salad to go with it. But whatever it was, it smelled good.
I could hear Josh laughing in the living room. He seemed so happy. I longed to go out there and give him a great big hug. I longed to be the one that he was telling embarrassing stories about. Okay did I just say that? Oh yeah I did but who cares. I dropped the knife I was holding on the counter.
"Donna, when is the baby due anyway?" Zoey asked not noticing I had dropped the knife.
"Um..." I replied without paying much attention.
"Donna, you okay?" C.J. asked.
"Yeah, fine." I lied.
"Okay but it's easier to cut carrots with a knife then it is to do it with your hands." C.J. pointed out.
"So it is." I muttered as I picked the knife back up.
Oh who was I kidding? I couldn't hide away in the kitchen anymore. I placed the knife back down and I went into the living room. Josh was in the middle of a funny story about Sam from long before the campaign. He didn't even notice me approaching. I was sitting in his lap before he did.
His eyes widened in surprise as I wrapped my arms around him. I began to mutter I was sorry. He just kissed the top of my head and he whispered that we would talk about this later. I looked up at him and he mouthed the word privately. I gave him another hug and I went back into the kitchen.
Silence filled the apartment. No one really knew what they had just witnessed. Then I could feel the mood lighten as Sam began an even more embarrassing story about Josh. I was just happy that he hugged me back. And he kissed me he actually kissed me.
Zoey and C.J. had missed the little exchange. They had just assumed I had gone to the bathroom or something. I smiled to myself; at least I had one secret from the two of them.
The rest of the evening seemed to fly by. Josh and I talked a little but nothing like we needed to. C.J. had raised her eyebrows until Toby finally whispered to her what had happened. She smiled and then had gone back to eating.
Sam had made us lasagna and to all of our surprise it was very, very good. I think that everyone else had been remembering the disaster with the stuffing on Thanksgiving. Josh was the only one without a surprised look on his face. Charlie was the first one to get the nerve to ask him why.
"Josh how come you don't look surprised? I had to practically beg you to come once you found out that Sam was cooking." Charlie stated.
"Well, I..." Josh stuttered, as his face got all red.
"Well?" Everyone asked.
Josh looked at Sam who shrugged. His face got an even darker shade of red. I had forgotten how much fun it was to see Josh squirm. Everyone was waiting for an answer.
"I forgot that he could make lasagna?" Josh stated, though it was more of a question.
"Joshua, what are you hiding for us? Sam just made us this great meal. Why were you holding out on us?" C.J. asked.
"Okay buddy you are so busted now. I gave you time to come clean." Josh offered.
"What did I do?" Sam asked innocently.
"This isn't Sam's cooking. It's pre-made from the restaurant down the street. All he had to do was heat it back up." Josh finally said.
"Samuel! You lied to me." C.J. stated.
"I'm a politician that's my job." Sam finally stated and everyone laughed.
"Zoey, I have something to ask you." Charlie said once the room was quiet again.
"Yeah?" Zoey asked in a confused voice.
"You know that I love you more than life itself. You know that I hurt every time you hurt. You know that you are my sun, and you are my moon. I love every second I spend with you. Will you do me the honor of being my bride?" Charlie asked as he fell down to one knee and produced a gorgeous ring.
"Yes." Zoey replied softly and everyone clapped.
As I had been watching this happen and while it was I had felt my wedding ring being slipped off. I looked over and Josh was holding it in his hand. He began to mouth the words that Charlie was saying. A tear came to my eye as I nodded yes. Josh slipped the ring back on my finger and he grinned at me.
"I hate to break up this party, but Donna and I have some things to discuss." Josh said softly.
Everyone looked over at us and they nodded. Josh gave grabbed a piece of paper and he wrote something on it. He told me to go to that address a few minutes after he left Sam's. The address seemed vaguely familiar but I just nodded. While they took Josh back downstairs I congratulated Zoey.
"I am so happy for you two." I said as I gave her a hug.
"I am happy for you to." She replied with a sly smile.
"Why?" I asked confused.
"I saw what Josh did." C.J. stated.
"I can't believe it either. Where does he want me to go?" I asked.
"My lips are sealed." C.J. smiled.
"Mine too." Zoey added.
I left a few minutes later like I had been instructed to do. I drove to the address that had been written down. The neighborhood looked extremely familiar but I couldn't be totally sure because it was dark out. Then I pulled into a driveway and I saw Josh's car. This was really odd, where were we at?
It wasn't until I started up the walk that I could see where I was. It was the little house that I had seen three months ago after we first got married. It was a house I remembered that needed a lot of work. Why did he bring me here? What in the hell was he up to?
I noticed that the front door had been left open a little bit so I walked inside. That's when I realized that the house no longer needed to be fixed up. The interior was as beautiful as I had imagined it being. A tear began to streak down my cheek as I also realized why it had been fixed up. Josh had bought it for me.
"Don't cry Donnatella." Josh said softly, as for the first time I noticed him perched on a couch.
"You did this for me even after what I did." I stated in a dazed voice.
"Well, at the time I bought this place we both needed a house. So everyone began to help me fix it up." Josh stated slowly before adding, "Even after everything else that happened."
"But I have been so horrible." I confessed looking into his eyes.
"I wouldn't say horrible..." Josh said as he tried to joke.
"How can you ever forgive me after everything I did?" I asked quietly.
"Because you have forgiven me for all the horrible things I said when I was fighting PTSD. Because you forgave me for not letting you help me." Josh replied.
"What I did was so much worse than what you did. You were nearly killed and you were fighting demons because of that. I was so much worse. I wasn't there when you needed me. How can you ever forgive me?" I asked.
"Because I love you. Because I've loved you since that day you became my assistant. Since I almost lost you twice." Josh said quietly.
"But you were the one who almost died both times." I protested.
"I still would have lost you." Josh commented softly.
"Josh, I am so sorry. I never meant what I said. I was angry and it was stupid and childish. I never meant for you to get hurt. I never meant..." I began to sob.
"Shhh, I know. Come here." Josh said.
I did as Josh asked and he wrapped me up in his arms as I cried on his shoulder. He slowly rocked me back and forth. He whispered how much he loved me and that of course he would forgive me. When I stopped crying he gently brushed some stray tears away.
The best I ever had
"Has any one ever told you what a big softie you are?" I asked.
"I will always have a soft spot in my heart for you." Josh replied with a grin.
"So everybody worked on this?" I asked.
"Uh huh and there is a video tape around to prove it." Josh laughed devilishly.
"I don't deserve you, you know?" I stated.
"I know but my charm is hard to resist." Josh said as he got this proud grin on his face.
"So is it okay if we forget about the divorce?" I asked.
"Well, yes, but there is one thing I hoped we could do first." Josh said slyly.
"And what would that be?" I asked.
Suddenly, I felt Josh tickling me. I was extremely ticklish and he knew it. He just laughed evilly at the way I was squirming.
"Payback's a bitch." I exclaimed as I began to try and tickle him.
We both ended up in a heap on the floor. Too out of breath to get back up we just laid there on the floor. Josh put his head on my stomach. He tried to listen to the baby moving around. Should I tell him that I was having twins? Nah I think I'll save that little detail until tomorrow. I got plans for the rest of the night.
The best I ever had