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I'll be

By Mer

Part 5-five days later

Josh told me about the plan to attend the memorial and then get married. I thought that it was really sweet that he would go there with me. I had already planned on going alone, because I figured that Leo would tell him no. But I guess he figured that Josh would be okay as long as I was there with him.

The memorial service was a little surreal. I was surrounded by a bunch of people who were crying there eyes out and I couldn't help but get emotional myself. Josh let me cry on his shoulder. I noticed that he looked upset too. Again, I thought that he was being sweet.

After the service we snuck off to Hawaii. I couldn't believe that he gave me such a stupid made up name. Oprah Kodak, oh yeah that sounds like a normal name. But no one seemed to notice. That first night Josh slept on the couch. He said that we had better leave the sleeping together part for after the wedding.

When I woke up the next morning he was gone. I began to panic but I found a note that he had written. He mentioned that it was bad luck to see the bride before the wedding. I smiled at that. Then I also found a box that was labeled wedding traditions. Josh had gone all out. All I could think about was when did he have the time to do all of this?

Inside the box was a pearl necklace with a piece of paper saying that it was something borrowed. Then there was a blue barrette with the words something blue. Like I hadn't figured that one out. Then there was a receipt to pick out a dress at this one dress shop, and yes it was the something new. At the bottom of the box was a drawing of the ring and the words something old.

As I was putting the stuff away, I found another note. It gave me directions to where we were going to get married. He also said that I could still back out at any time and he would understand. Man, he was just the sweetest guy.

I hurried and went down to the dress shop. I picked out a beautiful but simple white dress. I went up to purchase it and the lady asked me if my name was Oprah.

"Yes." I replied trying to hide my laughter.

"Well, Oscar told me to tell you that Rosa's Floral Shop will have your bouquet ready." She said as she gave me a wink.

I went back to hotel and I got dressed. Then I headed to Rosa's Floral Shop. An old woman smiled as soon as I opened the door. She went running in the back. When she came back out she brought with her a gorgeous bouquet of flowers and two leis.

"Your ride will be here any minute." She assured me.

Sure enough a horse drawn carriage arrived to pick me up. Man, Josh was turning out to be really, really romantic. The carriage took me to a secluded area near this gorgeous waterfall. When I stepped out of the carriage and the wedding march began to play.

Josh was waiting for me. He had this huge smile on his face. I couldn't believe that I was actually going to do this. All I could was that I was actually marrying Josh Lyman. My friend, my boss, and I couldn't be happier.

After a beautiful ceremony he took me to this romantic dinner. My head was spinning. Josh was being so sweet and so kind. I knew that I wouldn't be sorry for saying yes. Josh was going to be the father of my baby. He was going to be there for me the rest of my life.

The dinner was followed by a night filled with romantic lovemaking. I felt like I was on cloud nine. Josh was the first one to fall asleep. I couldn't sleep because I was still so happy. I was lost in thought when I heard Josh calling out in his sleep. He was having a nasty nightmare.

I tried to wake him up but I couldn't. I could tell that he was dreaming about the shooting. Since I couldn't wake him up I just wrapped my arms around him tighter. I held him and soothed him until his breathing returned to normal. My poor sweet Josh needed me, and I was glad that I could help him.

And when you're there with no one to hold
I'll be the arms that reach for you

But that all happened a few days ago, now I was sitting at my desk while Josh talked to Leo. He was telling him all about the fact that we were married. Josh came back and he had slumped shoulders. I was afraid of what they meant.

And when you feel your faith is running low
I'll be there to believe in you

"Leo would like to see you." Josh said as he approached my desk.

"Is this a good thing?" I asked.

"Just go and see him." Josh urged.

I rushed to Leo's office. On my way there I glanced back at Josh and I could swear that he had a huge grin on his face. But I wasn't sure. No, Josh couldn't have been grinning he wasn't having a good day. When he had a bad day, it took a lot for him to grin. I must be losing my mind.

"You wanted to see me?" I asked innocently.

"I guess congratulations are in order." Leo said with a sigh.

"Yes, Josh and I got married." I said with a huge smile.

"Are you sure that he is going to make you happy?" Leo asked.

"He already has." I smiled.

"I just wished that he hadn't of lied to sneak away. I mean it was pretty lame for him to use the memorial services as an excuse." Leo said with a tinge of annoyance.

When all you find are lies
I'll be the truth you need

"We did go to the memorial services. I lost a dear friend in that crash." I said, the smile falling from my face.

"But you were married in Hawaii." Leo protested.

"Yes, but we made a stop in New York first. Honest Leo, Josh wasn't lying about that. In fact he didn't lie to you at all. Granted, he excluded our Hawaii trip, but he didn't lie about it." I said in an angry tone.

"Okay, I stand corrected. Donna, this doesn't really make me very happy. I talked to the president about it and he said that we would have to let..." Leo began.

"You are not firing Josh over this!" I exclaimed.

"I wasn't going to say that." Leo assured me.

"Well, then I guess I will clear out my desk." I replied.

"Donna if you would've just let me finish I would've told you that we are very happy for both of you. We are going to let you both continue to work here as long as it doesn't become a problem." Leo said.

"Oh thank you, thank you." I replied as I jumped up to hug him.

"Don't hug me yet, C.J. is going to be royally pissed that she wasn't at least invited." Leo joked.

"Sam's going to mad too." I replied.

"And Toby will be mad because we are making such a big deal out of this." Leo added.

"Yeah. Hey Leo did you get a chance to watch that tape I left on your desk?" I asked.

"Why is it your honeymoon video?" He joked.

"No, but it is a video of a press conference that Josh gave. I really think you ought to watch it." I said seriously.

"Did he mess something up that I missed?" Leo asked with a scowl.

"No. Just watch and see for yourself." I said as I turned to leave.

"By the way are you Donna Moss-Lyman now or are you just Donna Lyman? I have to know for personnel." Leo asked.

"Donna Lyman, I think Josh would kill me otherwise." I replied with a laugh.

"It would be a good fight to watch." Leo stated.

I turned and I went back to Josh's office. He had already gathered Toby, C.J., Sam, and Charlie in his office. His eyes lit up as I walked in.

"May I now present to you, Mrs. Josh Lyman?" Josh asked as everyone's jaws dropped to the floor.

I gave Josh a kiss on the lips. I could hear some shocked noises coming from the four of them. I pulled away and stood side by side with my husband.

"I can't believe you guys actually got married." C.J. said in a shocked voice.

"Hey, didn't you promise me that I could be your best man if you ever got married?" Sam protested.

"Now Zoey is going to get the wrong idea." Charlie muttered.

"It's about damn time. Do you have any other pressing business?" Toby asked.

"Sorry Toby I didn't realize I was interrupting something important." Josh joked as I punched him in the shoulder.

"Trying to change him already." Sam joked.

"That hurt by the way." Josh replied.

"Well, I believe that you deserved it. Congrats, but if you'll excuse me I have a boring senator to meet with." Toby said and he left the room.

"He's just jealous that you didn't invite him." Charlie joked.

"I can't believe that you didn't tell me. Joshua, you are in so much trouble. I thought Donna had a boyfriend." C.J. complained.

"C'mon guys we should leave them alone. They are going to need it. I hear the president is already planning to talk to them about the sanctity of marriage or something." Charlie warned.

"Oh boy, first day back and already a long lecture. Glad I'm not you." Sam joked as they all walked out.

"How come you let Leo believe that you had lied?" I asked.

"I didn't, he never even mentioned it to me." Josh said with a sigh.

"You swear?" I asked.

"I swear." Josh assured me.

"Josh, I wanted to ask you about something." I said as my voice got that serious tone to it.

Josh's face paled. I don't know what was running through his mind. I thought that we should at least discuss his nightmares. But the look on his face made it seem like he was worried about something else.

"Donna what's wrong? What did I do?" Josh asked.

"It's not something you did. Josh how long have you been having nightmares?" I asked.

"I don't know on and off since the shooting, I guess. Stanley says that they are normal. I don't even remember them anymore. They used to paralyze me with fear. They don't anymore." He assured me.

"You had one the other night and I couldn't wake you up." I said softly.

"I'm sorry." Josh replied.

"You can talk about them with me. I mean if they ever start to bother you again, will you promise that you will tell me." I asked.

"I wasn't sure if you wanted me to." Josh replied with a shrug.

"You can tell me anything. I'm here to help you." I smiled.

When you need someone to run to
You can run to me

I'll be your shoulder
When you need someone to lean on
Be your shelter
When you need someone to see you though
I'll be there to carry you
I'll be there
I'll be the rock that will be strong for you
The one that will hold on to you
When you feel that rain falling down
When there's no one else around
I'll be

I'll Be - 6



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