Mallory: Heart of Hope
"It's a wonderful feeling when your father becomes not a God but a man to you--when he comes down from the mountain and you see he's this man with weaknesses. And you love him as this whole being, not as a figurehead." ~Robin Williams
Mallory sat alone in her apartment, correcting Social Studies tests and listening to the radio. It had been raining all day, but now the storm seemed to have hit it's peak. As another song began to play, she realized the melody was vaguely familiar to her. She set down the tests, and focused on finding out what song it was.
= It's funny the way you can get used to the tears and the pain What a child will believe You never loved me =
After listening to the first verse it hit her. It was "Oh Father" by Madonna. Tears began to form in the corners of Mallory's eyes. She remembered when the song first came out.
= You can't hurt me any more I got away from you I never thought I would You can't make me cry You once had the power I never felt so good about myself =
It reminded her of her relationship with her father while she was growing up. All of the alcohol, all of the drugs, all of the pain. She remembered when he would come home drunk. She would lock herself in her room and hide.
= It seems like yesterday I laid down next to your boots and I pray for your anger to end Oh father I have sinned =
Those were such hard times. As a teenager she would listen to this song over and over again. It would make her feel like she wasn't so alone. There were times when she came home from school, and the man she found there wasn't her father. Her father would talk with her, and take care of her. But the man she found there was often angry or submissive, and cold, always cold.
= You can't hurt me now I got away from you I never thought I would You can't make me cry You once had the power I never felt so good about myself =
Things had changed so much since then. Her father won his battle with alcoholism, and their relationship had become so much stronger. What's ironic is that her parent's love survived the hardest times, but couldn't survive her father's job. Mallory had forgiven him long ago for all the pain he had put her through. She knew he had wanted better for his children, he proved that by overcoming his weakness, and going to AA meetings.
= Oh father you never wanted to live that way You never wanted to hurt me Why am I running away Maybe someday I will be able to say you didn't mean to be cruel Someone hurt you too =
A sole tear slid down Mallory's cheek.
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Disclaimer: I don't own the West Wing or it's characters, they belong to Sorkin and company. I also don't own the song "Oh Father", it belongs to Madonna and company. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~