Odyssey of Minds, pt 2: Josh POV

by: Peridot
Pairing(s): Josh/Donna
Category(s): Humour/Fluff/ Angst
Rating: YTEEN
Disclaimer: The characters belong to Aaron Sorkin, et al
Summary: Josh and Donna's thoughts after each season 6-episode.
Spoiler: Faith-based Initiative
Written: 1/11/05

She's in New Hampshire. She's actually literally gone. Why does this feel like the end? It seems so final.

Now I can't even try to change her mind. I can't ask her to come with me and work for Santos. God, we would have been a great team. Working to elect the next President of the United States. It wouldn't have been like the last time where she mostly just had to answer phone calls, make appointments and file. This time it would have been amazing. And now we will never have a chance to find out how it would be. Damn it, she didn't even have the decency to let me know she was going to another state!

"Call Donna!"

Well it was easy for Toby to say that. Doesn't he realize that I'm the victim here?! Well ... maybe if I had called her this may not have happened. Maybe if I had just stopped being an ass and picked up the damn phone! Would that have made a difference? Oh man, why do I always screw up?!

But then again, it wouldn't have made a difference. I mean I only just made the decision to go with Santos. I couldn't have told her even if I had called earlier. Hah! So I guess I didn't screw up this time!

Hmmmm ... Damn it! If I had called her, however, we would have talked and things would have been better between us. And then she would have told me she was going to New Hampshire which then would have given me the opportunity to let her know about my plans with Santos. I did screw up!

Sigh ... I wonder what she's doing now and if she's feeling alone ... or scared. Will she like it there? Not knowing anyone. Well, I guess she'll be meeting a whole lot of new people there ... at the `Russell for President' campaign headquarters. Oh god! She's going to help elect Bingo Bob! And I'm working to elect Santos! Oy, this cannot be good. She's working for the enemy. How could this have possibly happened?

I know how. Because I decided I wanted to see a Hispanic Congressman from Texas get elected as President! I deserted the President just before his last year. Our last year! He may have given me his blessings as Leo did but I still somehow feel crummy about it. I know Toby is really pissed at me. Even though I had all the right reasons. I guess I can understand his frustration. Things are not going great for us right now. We all worked really close together to get an unknown governor elected to President. I guess it's only appropriate to stick in there to the very end. This will be a guilt that I will always carry with me.

But, however ... I wasn't the only one who left in the middle of the administration. Donna did that too! Argh! Why is everything so screwed up?! How am I ever going to work without her by my side? She's been there every step of the way. She takes care of me. Will I be able to venture this new beginning without her? Man it hurts just to think about it.

How am I going to survive? Maybe ... Just maybe I can get her on my side. Could there possibly be an inkling of a chance for me to coerce her to defect to my side? The right side.

Donna's POV: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 Josh's POV: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8

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