Odyssey of Minds, pt 3: Josh POV

by: Peridot
Pairing(s): Josh/Donna
Category(s): Humour/Fluff/ Angst
Rating: YTEEN
Disclaimer: The characters belong to Aaron Sorkin, et al
Summary: Josh and Donna's thoughts after each season 6-episode.
Spoiler: Opposition Research
Written: 1/19/05

I finally saw Donna …Yup…The one an only. She looked amazing. But then again when doesn't she? I knew she was up at the campaign office but I actually didn't expect to see her.

Boy, did my jaw drop to the floor when I did see her. I just could not take my eyes off her. For that one moment my whole world pretty much just stopped. I didn't know where I was, what I was going to say or who else was in the room. I could not move or even blink. All I could see was a vision of Donna.

The thought of not being able to see that vision everyday is just killing me right now. It was totally different though seeing her this time. Like it was Donna but not really Donna, you know? She's no more my assistant, my confidant, my other half. She's someone else now and no ones assistant, that's for sure.

When the discussion with Will was over I was immensely relieved. The encounter with Donna had pretty much drained every drop of energy I had, which was why I could only muster up enough strength to walk away and not look back. I know it was very abrupt of me, but I was so afraid that if I looked at her for one more second or even was in the same building for one more second I may have let everything out. All the questions I had for her. All the explanations I wanted to give her. All the different emotions I have been suppressing inside of me for such a long time.

"Can we not make this a thing?"

"It's not a thing."

What did she exactly mean by `thing'? The fact that we are both working for opponents? The fact that she left me? The fact that Will is using her to guilt me? The fact that we haven't said a word to each other since she quit? I don't actually know but it's probably all of the above.

"Media targeting for the Northeast and Pacific Northwest."

Another jaw dropping moment. She's really moving up, isn't she? She does deserve it ... but ... why isn't she moving up WITH ME?! You know why, you idiot. Because you didn't promote her when you could and you kept her chained to your hip! You didn't really talk to her about Santos.

I should have told her about everything. About how I felt under- appreciated in the White House. About how unsatisfied I was. About my hopes and plans for getting Santos elected. About why I felt Santos was the real thing. If only I did ...

Now I guess I can't lure her after all. She said it herself, she's got a good salary and the campaign's actually got political support which I definitely can't offer her at this moment. I want her to have the perks. I want her to get all the things she has been longing for. But I just can't help but be selfish here.

"You ought to deliver some of those truisms yourself."

Just when I thought Will contaminated her with his arrogance and overconfidence, she proved me wrong. It's just amazing how she can still help and inspire me despite everything. This is why Donna Moss will always and forever be a bigger person then I am.

Donna's POV: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 Josh's POV: 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8

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